Washington [US], March 5: Hilaria Baldwin recently revealed the profound emotional toll her husband, Alec Baldwin, endured after the tragic on-set shooting that claimed the life of cinematographer Halyna Hutchins during the filming of Rust in 2021. Hilaria disclosed that Alec grappled with intense survivor’s guilt and even considered ending his life as he tried to come to terms with the devastating incident.
In an emotional conversation shared on the March 2 episode of The Baldwins, Hilaria opened up about a heartbreaking exchange between her and Alec that highlighted the psychological distress he faced. “I found these text messages the other day between us,” Hilaria said, recounting how Alec had expressed his feelings. “He said he wanted to kill himself.”
Hilaria, mother to seven children, explained that Alec’s dark thoughts were rooted in the overwhelming burden of survivor’s guilt he felt after the fatal shooting, which occurred when a live round was discharged from a prop gun in Alec’s hand, striking and killing Hutchins.
Alec, now 66, was left to contend with the unimaginable grief, and Hilaria shared that he often wished it had been him instead. “He wishes it were him,” Hilaria said, reflecting on the immense emotional pain Alec struggled with. “He would change places in a second.”
The traumatic incident continued to haunt Alec, and Hilaria noted that the shooting weighed heavily on both his mental and physical well-being. Alec began experiencing significant health problems, including heart issues, which led to multiple hospitalizations. Hilaria also revealed that he had been diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) following the tragedy.
“Everyone who is close to Alec has seen his mental health decline,” she shared in a February 23 episode of their reality show. “He says in his darkest moments, ‘If an accident had to have happened this day, why am I still here? Why couldn’t it have been me?'”
The emotional weight of the tragedy extended beyond Alec’s own suffering, as Hilaria noted how deeply the incident impacted their family. Alec expressed his concern for Hilaria, stating, “I always feel more in pain about you than me,” adding, “I think what it’s done to you and how much it’s hurt you.”
Despite the emotional and physical toll, there has been some legal resolution. In July 2024, involuntary manslaughter charges against Alec Baldwin were dismissed after a judge ruled that evidence had been withheld from the defense. The evidence pertained to bullets connected to the shooting, which had been filed under a different case number. Following the dismissal, Alec filed a civil lawsuit, seeking justice for malicious prosecution and civil rights violations as he continues to recover from the traumatic experience.
Key Features:
- Hilaria Baldwin opens up about Alec Baldwin’s mental health struggles after the Rust shooting.
- Alec Baldwin faced survivor’s guilt and considered suicide following the tragic incident.
- Alec was diagnosed with PTSD and experienced significant health problems after the shooting.
- Hilaria shares Alec’s emotional pain and concern for their family.
- Legal resolution reached in 2024 with the dismissal of manslaughter charges.
- Alec Baldwin files a civil lawsuit seeking justice for the traumatic event.
Key Model:
- Alec Baldwin’s psychological journey as he copes with guilt and trauma from the on-set tragedy.
- The emotional resilience of Hilaria Baldwin as she supports her husband through this difficult time.